Penning thoughts.

It's been almost a month since i've updated this almost "abandoned" blog.. and I suppose I should be salvaging this forgotten little website of mine. This month has been a fruitful and should I say, a happy month for me =). Our Korea exchange thingy has been confirmed and we'll be leaving next week!! been busy preparing with all the nitty gritty details like visa, medical checkup and whatnot, and all 5 of our faces spell "cant-wait-to-go-korea!!" hahaaha..

Excitement of going Korea aside, another issue that made this month 'happy' for me was the fact that me and H have resolved our unhappy problems and set aside all other differences, or rather most differences. That 1 week was really a worthwhile week and that expensive air ticket wasn't a waste at all. For those of you who are concerned, we're in a sort of 'open' relationship, and more like close friends now. I'm still unable to give our relationship 100% confidence, and unwilling to give him total trust after the whole 'drama- mama' episode. And we both know that a relationship requires 100% commitment with complete trust. With me lacking this trust in him, it might be better to be apart for now. Even so, the chemistry that we have for each other remains strong and I dun think this chemistry will ever fade after 5 yrs of love. Anyway, the 1 yr that we'll be apart will still remain a challenge to us both. But as wad my lovely wise LS said," if he's meant to be, he's meant to be." Who knows, we might be back together again after this 1 yr =)

Gawd, it feels really good being able to write all these mushy relationship stuff. I've never really been able to discuss all these and strangely, the little locket hiding in the corner of my heart feels liberated and refreshed! hahaha.. ok.. sounds so drama again.. BACK To Korea excitement!! This'll be my last week in sunny island Singapore b4 i head off to the ann-yeong haseyo island. Probably due to 2 yrs of being a hall residence, I've grown not to miss my family when I'm away! hahaha.. it's either a good thing or a bad thing, depending on how you see it. But one thing's for sure, when we're out shopping, family will be no. 2!!! But i'll definitely miss friends!! rushing to all my friends gatherings this week, and I really hope to have at least a meal with all of these lovely friends before missing them for 4 months.. sob

woah... feels like a long entry I've written and boy it does feel satisfying penning down all my thoughts to words.. and may i add that blog writing can be quite taxing to the brain and I think i need some rest... hahahah.. so see y'all!! next update will be in korea! =D =D =D

Outings galore!

been MIA-ing for a while.. and this post has been under draft for the past week cos i'm too lazy to blog. Though work's always boring, but my girlfriends always make life happening for me after work. MUACKS to you all!

First up! dinner at jap restaurant..

And tinkerbell juz came back from taiwan.. with lotsa goodies from there!! yum!!

Doesn't this look mysteriously like a sanitary pad? It still comes with wings!

It's a marshmallow!! yum! the 'pads' do taste quite good actually, just a little sweet for my liking.. but it's just so cute!! and i can't bear to throw the packaging away..

and this is totally unrelated... but guess i'll post it up anyw.. went cycling w mr lim at ecp. for those who din know, i'm really bad at cycling and i'll normally 'langa' into trees or drains.. but this time.. i feel like i'm a total pro! hahah! i've learnt to cycle with one hand and i din 'langa' into anything!

ok.. excitedness aside, i was trying to capture a pic of mr lim and ended up.. he looked constipated.. haha!! sorry!! i told you to smile but you gave that expression... so can't blame me right.. :p

then he tried to take a pic of me... but i din let him haha :p

I want to have another cycling outing soon! but this time... we'll include more ppl... the more the merrier! yipps!!


And another outing with my beloved girlfriends!! oh how much i love you all.. hugs!! back to pasta cafe at taka waiting for LS to be released from work..

Our solo pics!!

PY and SY

And after LS arrived, major group photos..

YEA!! it's been a great week so far.. and now... another week of work awaits me. -_- sucks having to work.. but i need the money to compensate for my spendings during GSS.. haha! ohh! and next week's the last week of GSS.. so there's gonna be major sales and that means more shopping!! woohoo! haha..

Back to depressing topics.. The korea uni still hasn't provided us with our acceptance packages.. and it's worrying cos we're supposed to fly next month and everything's not been settled yet.. *crosses fingers tightly that we'll get our acceptance package soon... I dun wanna stay in NTU next sem without a hall!!

Holidays are the best times!

Went to Zouk lately.. supposedly to meet up with my dear Eline who juz came back from UK. But I ended up with gera, shiying, wenlin and their friends.. haha! and I din get to hang out much with Eline.. but it's ok! there's still lots of time for hanging out sessions. What with all the unhappy events going on in the last few weeks, I'm determined to make my holidays worthwhile filled with laughter and fun!

Waiting at the mrt station for Wenlin...

Gera and Michael!

With dear Shiying and Eline!

Wenlin and Shiying

Shiying and Rafael!

Rafael, Louis and Fabian

And Wenlin's friend, Francis (I think)

Next up! Kbox session with poly and uni friends.. and shopping before GSS ends

好眼淚壞眼淚 徐若瑄

I totally Heart this song!

我曾 認真 深愛著一個人 他給我幸福 的可能

我等 我問 未來何時發生 他只是給我一個吻

快樂 我哭 是因為你的手 曾答應帶我向前走

難過 我哭 是因為我的手 找不到你說的 以後

好眼淚 壞眼淚 我都曾為你流

感動和悲傷都是理由

只不過 在你不再愛我了以後

剩壞的眼淚慢慢流

快樂 我哭 是因為我付出 得到你溫柔的答覆

難過 我哭 是因為我認輸 你的心永遠留不住

好眼淚 壞眼淚 我都曾為你流

感動和悲傷都是理由

只希望 在我不再想你了之後

有好的眼淚慢慢流

I love my Friends!

So the girls and me have been hanging out lately and they were a great company! What with all the encouragement they've given me.. and also shopping tips with the ongoing GSS.. and all I can say is...

I love you gals!

Thanks Lao Ma and Maine!

Lots of cam-whoring while waiting for Lao Ma to reach Suntec..

Finally, dinner at Pastamania at freakin 9pm!

Thanks Lishi Pekyu and Shiying!

And also many thanks to Karen, June, Lishi, Joseph, YC, Siqi etc etc.. we always didn't manage to take any pics. but i'll make sure that the next time we meet.. we must take many many pics!

and before I start work.. i really need to hang out more often with all my dear friends.. especially when I'm going to Korea for exchange soon. First up! Butter FAC! with my dear ELINE! oo. i simply can't wait..

For all shoppers out there!

Labels or Love

I already know what my addiction is

I be looking for labels, I ain’t looking for love

I shop for purses while I walk out the door

Don’t cry, buy a bag and then get over it

And, I’m not concerned with all the politics

It’s a lot of men I know I could find another one.

SHOPPING ROCKS!

Dearest __

It's so over.. I'm still dazed by the events that took place yesterday and I still held on to the belief that everything was just a joke.. but it's not.. it's real, and nothing will ever change that fact. Why did it happen so suddenly? Do you even realise u're throwing away our 5 year relationship just like that?

U said i was insensitive.. sure i was.. i admitted that.. i apologised repeatedly. I'm not sure whether you accepted my apologies, but it was sincere. You told other ppl that i was insensitive.. I'm alright w that.. it was the truth, it was necessary to get it out of your heart. How about times when u yrself were insensitive? There were days where i hoped that you would initiate a conversation w me on msn.. days where i hoped that you would initiate to start a webcam.. I had no one to complain to.. or rather.. i din want to complain to them because i thot we should trust each other. Maybe you're busy, studying hard, cooking, watching tv whatever..

Anticipating to meet you has been killing me for the last few months. After crying a few days after you left for australia every sem., i told myself life goes on, and in my heart there's a hope telling me that i can meet you in just another 3 months. And just next week, after anticipating for 3months, i could already meet you.. but your heart already belongs to someone else.

So for the last few days when you were cracking jokes.. it was all a pretense.. you were a really good actor you know.. great for acting the role of a jerk, or a bastard, or a fucker.. whatever.. u hoped we could still be friends? well.. u're welcome to kiss my arse.

And you know what? I won't allow myself to be sad over you.. because you're so not worth it.. oh, and i sincerely wish you will win over the heart of that unlucky girl.. seriously.. No, i'm not being sarcastic or anything.. i really hope you both can get into a relationship..

Thank goodness you told me b4 i was going into australia.. i can't imagine being stuck w a jerk for 1 entire month sleeping next to you.. you'll see.. I'm going to start life all anew and emerge as a stronger girl than i ever will be.. and you can just go fuck off

PS. I love my family and i love all my friends.. thanks for standing by me when i'm at my lowest and making me feel that my life shouldn't just revolve around him.